There’s a new contest. You’ll hear more about this because I’m really excited.
There’s been some talk lately, in my life. I was thinking about stopping contests. Like maybe they weren’t good for me. I went through this a while ago, with piano practicing.
I practice a lot. A LOT of superfluous piano. I do a LOT of “superfluous” things that don’t really “do me any good.” I do a lot of “time wasting” things. And I kind of cast about, adrift.
This has been about a year of that.
And yet, I’ve had more growth and more happiness in the last year or so that I ever would have believed possible.
I’ve also been more ALONE than I would have believed possible – even in community.
And by alone, I don’t mean lonely. I mean alone as in, get it together, girl. I mean alone as in pushed to the front of the stage out of costume. Naked, sometimes. Totally in the wrong kind of show. I’m not that sort of performer.
And I do need to get it together. Make some hard realizations.