Dear Internet (but not really)

1. I have a gig. Today this isn’t a good thing. Missing it isn’t an option.
2. I’m starving. But eating isn’t really an option either for the same reason that missing the gig isn’t an option. Or rather, eating will cause the missing of the gig. Which is unfortunate. I’ll do what I can.
3. Writing and checking in with writing all day has calmed me down. I know that I’m disconnecting, because I’m not even all that worried about the ning thing. Not even enough to post a link to the letter. Not really even enough to post links to anything.
4. I have no feelings for anything about anyone today. I am feeling really cold and unaffected and clinical.
5. Why did I title the post this? Oh yeah.

I have a lot of work to do right now. I counted up the projects. There are 32 active projects. That’s just stupid. They are not all marked “urgent.” Many of them are just mine … just things I am doing. So many of them are different things for people, one person doesn’t really know about the other, different aspects of my life, blah-blah-blah.

I think there are really just 12 things that HAVE to get done. Maybe 7 that need doing by this weekend’s end. Oh wait … no eight. That’s not too horrible. That’s 8 music things. Not eight life things. I still have to function and be a Productive Wife and Member of a Family and Human Being in a Community of Folks Who Give a Rat’s Ass.

(by the way, Mike does not put these ideas in my head. he is very nice. i am a goober.)

[aside. my iPhone just totally FREAKED OUT on me. it's sync-ing with my brain!]

But I will have to get stuff done, is what I’m saying. And if I feel like I’ve got the loose ends I have to say something. So I’m writing a letter to “myself” which is up here now so that I can say, “enough already” … if you’re distracted Mz. D, it’s Enigma Variations time. You’re grounded from the internet. There is too much stimuli. Because what if there’s a hostile takeover or something. An asparagus shortage. An alien landing and they don’t care about us but they have only come here to steal our mayonnaise. Gah! That would be a tragedy!

(why would the aliens need mayo? couldn’t they make it themselves?)

This is less a blog right now than a chronicle of my slow-slip into insanity! I really wanted this to be A Professional Thing. I am A Professional.

Hah. Not So Much. But my songs are hardly professional either, are they. And all the while I do this, I’m working in the back of my skull.

I suppose I should take the good with the bad and just let it happen as it does and do what I need to do to care for myself. Whatever is distracting.

Whatever.

Yuck

1. I am *bedridden!* Isn’t that a nice romantic word for dizzycrampynauseatedsideeffectyheadachesshakes? It sounds so fainting-couch! So “back-of-the-hand-to-the-head!” I’m such a drama queen! I’m the stuff from which legends are made! I’m Most Likely to Use Elipses! To Misspell Grammmatical Terms in a Sexual and Charming Fashion! Most Likely to Put Words In “Quotes” (quotation marks! Aagghh!) and Connect Phrases Unnecessacelery-and-Drolly with Hyphens! Whee!
2. I’m a little silly today.
3. The oak pollen in Austin is still trying to KILL everyone. Allergies will destroy.
4. I wrote an insightful, articulate blog, which was eaten by #damniphone. (I LOVE my hashtags by the way. They are like hash browns, but with fewer calories).
5. I am not in bed now, I am downstairs drinking dietcoke and listening to an array of birds that makes the Amazon sound like the most well soundproofed studio ever made.
6. Sick and silly is not a good combination.
7. I need to be drinking water, and probably easing up on the caffeine.

– Post From My iPhone