I’m at Ruta again, listening to a really great mix by the best sound guy in the galaxy. I don’t like SXSW, usually, because I’m never doing anything during it – which is my own fault. The one time I tried, it was difficult and exhausting. And it was the time before my mother got really sick and then it was over. I haven’t really gone for it again – I’ve just bided my time.
Things are different now. I’ve just kind of let things happen to me and I’ve done a LOT of practicing. I don’t feel awful about it and I’m just mellowing. An engineer friend of mine told me that I only sound whiny when I whine about whining. This was high praise coming from him – because I always feel both comfortable and … well … whiny around him.
When a really bad thing happens now, it only takes me half a day to get over it, as opposed to the old days, where I’d freak out and go into a week-long mourning period. Now I make practice plans. And then what I will do after I practice.